So I just finished a sleepover here in my apartment. I know, so junior high circa 1995. My best friend Anita was here, and we talked about anything and everything, as always, including, love, life, and the pursuit of happiness. She asked me a lot of questions about why I want to tell “him” how I feel. I had all the right answers, not really. She had some excellent advice and posed a few really good questions.
“Why can’t you just let it go and move on?” she asked.
“You know he doesn’t even feel the same way” she said.
“Anyway, if he did feel the same way, why doesn’t HE say something? Why is it always up to you?” she asked.
I’m thinking about these questions, and I’m wondering, why should I bother? What difference will it really make? Why risk a perfectly good friendship with a spectacular guy? And given how straight forward I’ve been in the past, why is it up to me to say something?
She’s gone home now, and after talking it out, I’m left, ONCE AGAIN, wondering if I should just move on in silence, keeping all of this to myself. If I had the slightest glimmer of hope, a tiny fraction of something, anything, that made me think that telling him could be worth it, I’d jump on it. But, the romantic piece of a person’s soul is difficult to reach when you’re friends. I mean…PFFFTT…you haven’t been romanced until you’ve been romanced by BLW. *eh hem* ok that was a bit much…sorry. But, maybe Anita is right. What do I have to gain? More importantly, why is this occupying so much of my time this week!
In other news…
I’M GOING TO SCANDINAVIA!!!!
Details to follow…
Bryan
“Why can’t you just let it go and move on?” she asked.
“You know he doesn’t even feel the same way” she said.
“Anyway, if he did feel the same way, why doesn’t HE say something? Why is it always up to you?” she asked.
I’m thinking about these questions, and I’m wondering, why should I bother? What difference will it really make? Why risk a perfectly good friendship with a spectacular guy? And given how straight forward I’ve been in the past, why is it up to me to say something?
She’s gone home now, and after talking it out, I’m left, ONCE AGAIN, wondering if I should just move on in silence, keeping all of this to myself. If I had the slightest glimmer of hope, a tiny fraction of something, anything, that made me think that telling him could be worth it, I’d jump on it. But, the romantic piece of a person’s soul is difficult to reach when you’re friends. I mean…PFFFTT…you haven’t been romanced until you’ve been romanced by BLW. *eh hem* ok that was a bit much…sorry. But, maybe Anita is right. What do I have to gain? More importantly, why is this occupying so much of my time this week!
In other news…
I’M GOING TO SCANDINAVIA!!!!
Details to follow…
Bryan
1 comments:
bryan, how long have you been pondering a relationship w/ this guy? how long have you kept your heart/desires from him? how long have you been thinking about this great question of "should i tell him or not"?
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