Bad Blogger...BAD!

It’s been brought to my attention that I’ve been a very bad blogger these past few months. I can’t argue. I have been. In my defense I’ve been doing a lot of living and as a result haven’t had much time to put my thoughts and experiences up for everyone to see. Truth is, I don’t know when and if I’ll blog much from now on. I just don’t feel like I have anything worth while to say.

I often post music videos on my blog. It may seem weird, but music speaks to me in ways that nothing else does. When I’m feeling a certain way, often the first thing that comes to mind is a song. Sometimes it’s a song that I wrote or am creating in my head. Sometimes it’s someone else’s. Music is a powerful thing, and I’m always amazed at the fact that there really is a song for every occasion.

It’s been a great weekend for me, filled with good news and good friends. I’ve had a ball. Today as I was walking home from the train listening to a song called Kings and Queens by Apostle of Hustle, I somehow wandered into the thought of how awesome it would be to cap this weekend hand in hand with the love of my life. These types of experiences have been common for me lately. I don’t know if it’s the Fall or just par for the course in getting older, but it’s interesting to see all the random situations that make me think about the day when that someone will really be there. I don’t know who he’ll be or what “we’ll” be like together, but thinking about it is pretty exciting, because love is just, well, exciting. I suppose I’m more of a romantic than I give myself credit for.

I love this song, and it comes to mind whenever I think about love and that moment when you realize that you’ve fallen for someone. I fully intend to play this song one valentine’s day for guy I end up falling for. Hopefully we don’t know each other and he’s not a reader of this blog. Otherwise the surprise is totally ruined.

It’d be even more romantic if we met in a coffee shop. I guess a guy can only ask for so much.

The Fall

Across the oceans I will seek you
Across the sea and across the sky
The breeze by your side and the whisper in your ear
An essence of something sweeter
A passion born of yearning and despair
I will search for you
Until the earth swallows me whole
Until the wind destroys my stride

Who will hide your face from me?

And who will keep your heart in step with mine?

- Anonymous

Classic Coldplay...never gets old

Yellow



Clocks


Fix You


Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Life, or something like it...

It’s been a while since i’ve blogged. It’s been a crazy past few months and life has been pretty interesting as of late, in some ways good…in some ways bad. Work is insane, although it’s been more challenging (in a good way) than I can ever remember it being before. It’s good, but it’s tough, because in a group with 3 others who do what I do I’m supposedly the only one who has promise. The others may not even be around by the end of the year, not their decision of course, and the stress of trying to do everything perfectly as not to slip up and get grouped into the same category is starting to get to me. Of course there’s no shortage of sick relatives, as always, with my grandfather succumbing slowly to prostate cancer over the last few weeks. My mom is having major surgery in a few weeks. I managed to get into two pretty large fights in the same week, one with a good friend, and one with my best friend. I don’t know that my best friend and I will make amends, which after 10 years of friendship leaves me with very few words. Oh, and the economy sucks too…

So, why so grim a post? I don’t know. I think this was more for me than for anyone else. Sometimes it’s nice to just put it all out there, even when the only ones who will read it are strangers you’ll never know or see.

There’s something about adulthood that’s painful and pleasurable all at the same time. You realize that sometimes life sucks, but it doesn’t have to end there. What doesn’t kill you actually can make you stronger, and as an added benefit you can learn something in the process. I’m learning more than I care to right now, and I’m not sure what the end results will be.

C’est la vie. Enjoy the song...

Dudes are weird, and a little Kaskade

I know, i'm slacking on the posts these days. Things are a bit busy at the moment, and while I have many thoughts and experiences, I rarely find myself with the time or energy to blog them out in a meaningful way. I'll sum up my experiences as of late by simply saying "dudes are weird".

Moving on...I’m attending Kaskade’s New York City album release party at Mansion next Friday. Kaskade has a pretty interesting story. He’s Mormon, and there aren’t too many Mormon DJ’s on the worldwide club scene. He’s a neat guy, with inspiring music, and absolutely fantastic beats. Next Friday should be fun. Get his album.

madness....

Fighting in the Boardroom

Got in a fight with a friend today, which was made more awkward by the fact that she's a coworker, which is made even more awkward by the fact that it was in the middle of a meeting (sigh). This really hasn't been my week.

Tomorrow should be interesting. And I hope and pray that i'll be less irritated with her, and her with me, when the morning comes. In the back of my mind I know life is way to short to be angry over something like this. But, in the meantime, I can't seem to get this song out of my head.



I believe in peace
I believe in peace

Death Cab New Album - May 13th

It's like a book elegantly bound, but in a language that you can't read - just yet...

Sometimes when you're lost, you're closer than you think

if I was crying
in the van, with my friend
it was for freedom
from myself and from the land
I made a lot of mistakes
I made a lot of mistakes
I made a lot of mistakes
I made a lot of mistakes

you came to take us
all things go, all things go
to recreate us
all things grow, all things grow
we had our mindset
all things know, all things know
you had to find it
all things go, all things go

A Question or Two - Just Because

If you could take back something you’ve said to someone you know, with pride no longer an obstacle, what would it be?

If you knew that tomorrow was your last day on earth, and you could spend it with someone you know doing something you love, who would you spend it with and what would you do?

I’m thinking of my answers…

Realize

I heard Colbie Caillat recently, and I’m pretty taken back by her talent. As you can hear, her voice is phenomenal, and chicks who play the guitar always make me swoon (in a non-heterosexual kind of way).

I love songs that actually mean something and that actually speak to the human experience, as opposed to the nice sounding gobly gook that some musicians put out there. "Realize" is particularly beautiful, and speaks to an emotional place we’ve all been in at some point or another.